Nothing serious has caused me to cease writing for a while. I do appreciate all your concern and missing me. As I wrote a friend previously who was a bit worried at me silence, my sister was diagnosed with cancer, my deaf daughter hauled off and pushed two classmates and has been sneaky and breaking rules everyday and since she only knows immediate satisfaction in everything she does with no concept of tomorrow,or purpose for doing things such as school - so it's a huge struggle everyday, one of my twins has started to shut down emotionally more than ever and just presents a rock hard exterior, I've had to put my oldest daughter into adoption therapy which we can't afford and I've identified a huge gap in her cognitive thinking and comprehension and now need to find the right testing for her, I finally got the Deaf school on track with the curriculum for my daughter after driving up there three times, it's taken 5 months for the Deaf school to finally get us a sign teacher to come to the house and I'm the one who found her, I feel I'm not a good Mommy on most days because I seem to have developed into a hard, no-fun person which really bothers me, we're still dealing with the hole in the dining room ceiling and all the furniture and rabbits piled into the living room, dh still doesn't have a job and I keep looking, making sure all the bunnies are getting enough attention and floor time is non-ending, I had to go through re-certification classes AND the 2 hour 150 question test and three practicals to renew my EMT license and tests just totally strips me of any self confidence and fills me with fear (and I don't know if I passed yet), I'm trying to figure out how to do Christmas, and then there are the rehearsals for singing in the Nutcracker (four out of my 5 are singing), and the piano & violin lessons, and it seems EVERYONE needs help with their homework every night..... That's basically why I haven't had the energy to write anything on the blog.
There you have it. I'm sure all parents can identify and are going through the same thing, I just became emotionally spent and wasn't able to write and re-live what was going on. By the time night came, I just wanted to go to sleep.
I will really try to write something every day now, and catch up on the family as a whole because it is all changing.
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I'm praying for you! Hang in there it HAS to get better soon. 1. you should sign up for toys for tots. 2. email me anytime, I don't have 5 but I have been through a lot of what your daughters have gone through with my 12 year old, especially your deaf daughter. He did everything you talk about with her, still does. We have found that with him we have to give him extra chores as punishment because nothing else worked. He is lazy by nature and hates the extra work. 3. Take care of yourself
ReplyDeletelove, Cara norbycj@hotmail.com
Thanks so much for the update! Glad it's only life that was keeping you away, and still amazed at all you do! Praying too :-)
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